Purpose?

If you have ever read the book New Moon, then you will know how sad Bella was. Her lover left, and she was completely alone. She had a hole where her heart was, she couldnt feel or even think without feeling pain because her heart wasnt there anymore. Like the world just didnt mean anything, it was just there. Not worth living in, but not able to leave with the fear of hurting loved ones. Its sucks when you feel that like you dont even want to get up, or you dont want to put all your effort into faking that smile or that laugh today. You try to be busy every second, because your afraid if you stop and think you will realize you can't think of one reason to live, or think of a million reasons why you want to die. The world lost its meaning, its purpose. And the only thing your left with is a fake heart, a fake soul, and wondering if you ever had a heart or a soul or if the fake happiness just made it seem like you did. Then when you read a book on vampires or anything out of this world you think, what is so special about earth? You are born, you go through decades of school, and then work for money to keep you afloat, then you live with joint pain till you eventially die. Nothing special, then you wish you could see magic or something amazing if only to make the world seem like there was something else to it worth living for, to see.

Lets Get Some Christmas Spirit

It's finally december and christmas is near.I already put up my tree, and it will be staying up until like April. I even brought some garlin to school(bright shiny blue) and gave a peice to one of my friends that requested the garlin. Four days later the garlin is basically gone except a few leftover peices, everyone wanted a peice of christmas spirit i guess. Im even not spending money on Mountain Dew so i can save up for christmas, and if that isnt x mas spirit i dont know what is. I even know what most of my friends are getting for each other, its funny really. But christmas is still a couple weekes off so the fun part hasnt even started yet.......

Playing With Fire

Did you know candles are awesome? Even when i cant have a lighter (cause my mom is afraid i will burn down the house) matches are fun. Matches are a lot easier to light, don't run out of gas, and are easier to light a candle with. So for you lighter pyro's I say try a match they burn prettier. On another note did you know that the pool of candle wax that is created when you burn a candle hardens if you blow the candle out? I never actual payed attention to the candle itself only the flame, and i realized this kick ass truth about candle wax today. So if it spills on a hard surface let it dry and peel it off, and viola no mess! Or a good way to reuse matches is to use one to light a candle, and then instead of using another match to light a second candle light the end of the first match on fire and light the candle. =) its fun. Thats all this pyro has to say about todays fire adventures...GO BUY A MATCH!